I’m sitting here on my couch in my PJs,Four Weddings on the TV (shush), toys scattered around my feet, spit-up on my tank top, Big O is napping peacefully in his crib, and C is out photographing a wedding all day. This will be the last time such a morning will transpire. It’s a rather bittersweet feeling, oh faithful reader.
I clearly didn’t follow through with my “I’ll blog all the time while I’m on maternity leave because I’ll have all this free time (HA!)” promise, and I do apologize for that.
And now suddenly it’s all come to an end. Tomorrow at this time I’ll be sitting at my desk at Auto123.com (or sitting in a meeting so they can catch me up on the latest and greatest in the biz), and C will be the one sitting on the couch in his PJs with spit-up and toys scattered everywhere.
I’m happy, but also kind of sad.
I absolutely love my job, which is why I chose to take a shorter maternity leave (here in good ol’ Canada we ladies get 52 weeks at home with our little ones, paid) and head back to work after 7.5 months. Thankfully, we Canucks also have the option to share the last 20 weeks with our partners, so that is precisely what C and I are doing. He will be home with Big O until November while I get back behind the wheel.
Being a mother has been an experience, so far. It’s been really good and it’s been really bad all at once. There were days where I think both Big O and I hated one another more than anything and those were the worst. And then there were days I just didn’t want his bedtime to come because we were having so much fun together. With all the ups and downs, I still wouldn’t change a thing. Owen is a wonderful child and C and I are so proud of him already. It’s going to be absolutely incredible to watch him grow.
And now I’m about to enter the realm of “working mum,” and I have to say oh faithful reader, I’m a little freaked out by the concept.
Sure, I’ll admit I’ve taken a liking to the whole motherhood thing, but adding a career to that too (a career that I tend to throw myself into 110%), seems almost impossible. Like mothers who worry they won’t have enough love to give to a second child, I feel that way about my job. How am I supposed to dedicate myself to both?
I have the utmost respect for working moms already, and I have yet to fully experience it myself. As an outsider, I see how hard it can be, especially for those who have a career they love and wish to maintain as they did before their bundle of joy arrived.
So, tomorrow I join those ranks. I just hope I can do the title “working mum” justice.
Now, of course, that means no more blogging, as was the case last year when I began my job at Auto123.com. As sad as that might seem, oh faithful reader, fear not! You can follow my reviews and blogs at Auto123.com as well as Auto-Venus.com, and of course keep track of my whereabouts and what I’m driving on Twitter (MsMirandaL) and Instagram (for all you iPhone users).
This is another new road, another bend in the tarmac that I can’t wait to round to see what’s on the other side. I’m anxious, excited, happy, sad, scared, confident and bewildered by it all at once. And I can’t wait to start my life as a working mum.
As always, thank you all for your support in all my endeavors! And thank you for putting up with my mummy-ness over the past few months. The automotive side of me will definitely be back to the norm now that I’m heading back to work, don’t worry!
Oh, and for those of who might be wondering what will be gracing my driveway this first week back behind the wheel: the 2013 Jeep Grand Cherokee SRT-8. This happens to be C’s favourite SUV at the moment (and it would be our family car if he had his way and the funds). Should be an interesting week. Oh, and I nearly forgot, another ride will grace my neighbourhood streets for a night as well. Some of you may have heard of this car before, oh faithful readers; the 2013 Nissan GT-R.
Watch out, Godzilla is coming.